The ' To do list'

• I need to find out what my unshaken foundations are, What I can compromise and what I can’t even begin to consider.
• I need to stop romanticizing the past, fearing the future and instead focus on the present.(‘ The reason people find it so hard to be happy is that they always see the past better than it was, the present worse that it is and the future less resolved that it will be’ M.P ‘ )
• I need to own my thinking!...my own positively critical thinking.

Never Regret

‘ If it was good,
It is wonderful
If it was bad
It is Experience’

Victoria Holt

The formula for happiness

Would it be a drastic oversimplification to assume that the formula for happiness and satisfaction to some extent sums up to where I set my expectations? Cos it makes a lot of sense, getting what I want naturally makes me happy and being deprived of my needs reverses the mood. What makes one happy is subjective and to some extent defined by the very person. Then it would make lots of sense to assume that my happiness depends on where I set my expectations. And my level of frustration, anger, annoyance , like wise.

Embracing ambiguity

'It’s okay not to know
Exploration is how we grow
It’s ok to not have the answer
Cuz sometimesIt’s the question that matters'

India Arie-Just For Today

The challenge

The challenge is to smile through disappointments, to keep going , to see the light even when it is deem, to realize that with God, things are possible, and he can do exceedingly and abundantly than we ever think and dream. The challenge is to carry the weather inside you, to develop an attitude that is not pushed around and pulled apart by outside circumstances which you cannot influence not change. The challenge is to tame the beast inside which reacts to outside stimulus so easily and creates internal turmoil, the challenge is be in charge, somehow in control of your emotions...to make it through the rain feeling like a sunshine!

About disappointments

The speed and style to which disappointments can make their way through smiles, excitement and happiness is truly cunning! They approach in the most slyest and crafty way..Camouflaged with whatever covers their true identity...and BOOM!
Yesterday, I was the happiest girl in the world, but before I got to enjoy my good news properly and absorb the joy ,today made its way with a pinch of disappointment..But I believe everything happens for a reason and it is a test of character and stamina to stand through disappointments, go forward and not take it personally!
I am grateful for all the wonders in my life and I am determined to pass the 'disappointment resistance test! '

My Rock

I am sure I am not the only one who feels that the space mothers have in our lives is something that falls short of words. ..but despite this limitation, I wanted to attempt to scribble few things about my rock, my mother who has been everything to me and my brothers.

My mother is a very special woman, yes I am biased , but for me she is the symbol of an ultimate woman, who loves and lives for others. A wise and extremely open minded person, perhaps this is what makes her a valuable well of solutions; nothing is dismissed in my mother's head as unacceptable or useless without being given some consideration. What most of us fail to see, she sees and understand, and I think this amazing quality comes from the exercise of accepting people, opening up to them.

Slow and Fast

Things are not going as fast as I want them to, ironically the days seem to pass by so fast..sometimes without realizing what I have done or accomplished that day...but still the things I want to happen are taking their time..playing with my impatient nature.

When the sun shines

I have millions of undone stuff which I have to attend to, I have some small and big frustrations, some worries which never seem to leave, anxiety and anxiousness also persisting. I have so many question marks, doubts and regrets...I dwell bit far away from satisfaction. But today the sun shone so brightly ( at least so brightly for this time of the year) and the air was so refreshing and cool...and as I strolled down a busy post-worldwartwo street, crowded with antic sellers and buyers, I was able forget all those feelings and smile and be happy genuinely , enjoying that particular moment.

One of those days

There are days when I want to Google about irrelevant and trivial stuff for an abnormally long period of time, like the list of movies which won the Oscar in the 1990s and watch their trailers on youtube...and today was one of those days.

These are days where you spend hours on Wikipedia quenching yout thrist for general knowledge you can live without. ..the blue hyperlinks amidst the text , which when you click on them unfold more and more and more hyperlinks, can keep you there for hours..one can easily get carried away.
I assume it is called procrastination, but I would rather avoid that word, it has some kind of heavy scolding feeling to it...

Uncertain

I have always been a bit obsessive about certainty.I do not like the uncertain state. If I can help it, I want to plan, know, make calculated guesses, predict ( in the worst cases!). Certainty is something I need, something that keeps me at ease. While I think that there is not much harm in seeking certainity in life, I realized today that not being able to cope with uncertainty is a major predicament to a peaceful and natural way of life....I think I have to start changing the ways I deal with uncertainty.....yes today I am going to make friends with uncertainty. This should be interesting...but I am uncertain how it will go...damn, I did it again!

Let's see how this goes..

My first blog..:)